I Fell…

Sorry I haven’t posted to Seeking Simcha in a few months…I fell.

Things were going well for me during my journey towards simcha (Jewish happiness). I was losing weight, meditating and working towards Shalom Bayit (greater peace at home).

But then I started getting stressed and very busy at my high-tech job, triggering a pattern of dysfunctional eating (something I have struggled with in the past). I began binging at restaurants and eating until I literally felt sick.

I think I was hoping the physical pain and discomfort would distract me from some of the harder issues that I don’t want to think about/deal with. And the shame and self-loathing that I felt after a binge touched on some of my self-esteem issues and felt like something I deserved as punishment.

Thankfully, with the help of G-d, I am once again working towards simcha.  I remind myself that:

A righteous man falls down seven times and gets up.  King Solomon, Proverbs, 24:16.

I am unfortunately not yet a righteous man, but I have gotten up. I am back on the path towards simcha and I hope you will join me for the journey!

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